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I'm not superstitious or anything, but something is creepy
about the 18th of the month.
My grandpa, who I was close to, passed on 08/18/84 ( age 75 ),
then my mom who was my best friend passed on 06/18/95
( age only 52 yrs ), Brian, on 10/18/2018,
and then my dad ( age 79 ) 07/18/2023.

My fiancé Brian passed on Oct. 18, 2018 at only 56 yrs of age.
He was my best friend, soul mate, and the love of my life.
To some people, he may have been a nobody,
but to me, he was my special somebody.

I love and miss Brian so much.
I miss his hugs and kisses, his voice and listening ear.
I miss holding him, laughing, crying, talking, and
being with him.

God made a special soulmate just for me
He made a perfect gentleman, compassionate and kind,
with more love and affection then you could ever hope to find
God gave my Brian a heart of solid gold
and wonderful memories my heart and soul can hold
Brian was someone I could laugh with till tears
came down my face
He was someone that I could talk to that no one can replace
We'll be together soon and I will put my arms around
him and kiss his smiling face
then the pieces of my broken heart will fall back into place.

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12/30/1961 - 10/18/2018

The moment that I found out you passed
my heart was torn in two
one side filled with heartache, the other went with you.
Remembering you is easy, I do it every day,
but missing you is heartache that never goes away.

I can no longer see you with my eyes or touch you
with my hands, but I feel you in my heart, my thoughts,
and by my side forever.

In secret I weep, in silence I cry
As each lonely hour and day passes by
There's only one thought that eases my pain
And that's knowing that one day we'll be
together again.
Author Unknown

You gave no last farewell, nor said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it and only God knows why
A million times I will miss you, a million times I will cry
In my heart you hold a place, no one else can ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone
for half of me went with you, the day God took you home
I know we will soon be together again.
Author Unknown

They say there is a reason, they say that time will heal
But neither time nor reason will change the way I feel
For no-one knows the heartache, and no-one knows
how many times I broke down and cried
I didn't get to say goodbye, it repeats inside my head
It fills my heart with pain and my very soul with dread
I never said those final words whispered quietly in your ear
But I did say "I love you" enough times for you to hear.
Author Unknown

'My Soulmate'

I still say I love you, but now there’s no reply.
I always feel your presence as if you never left my side.
I remember your comforting voice. Now there’s not a sound.
Only echoes from the past follow me around.
You’re always by my side, but I can’t hold your hand.
The reason why God took you I find hard to understand.
Summer days seem much shorter. Dark nights just linger on.
Dreams turn into nightmares when the one you love has gone.
But real love never fades. It still burns like the sun.
Although they’re far away, those memories go on and on.
His spirit will never die It shines like the stars.
I know you’re living in heaven, but you’re also still living
in my heart.
Author Unknown